Thread & Wire... Metal Clay... + Conflicts

Needless to say, I CAN'T WAIT TO START WORKING WITH MY HANDS AGAIN!! Having been faced with the difficult choice in secondary school between taking AEP (Art Elective Program) and downgrading to the Normal Academic stream and staying on in the Science Express stream with me obviously choosing the latter... One of my life's regrets, I only wish I had the courage then to follow my heart and go against my parents' wishes. (I blame culture for this by the way, about how ever since when you're young, you're totally groomed to go down the pure academic path where 'Science is good and Arts is inferior')

I'm moving on to the Thread and Wire classes (Both Basic and Advanced) after my Gemology and Jewellery History classes at JDMIS complete (Next week, I start the second week after. LOL.). PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let the Metal Clay class be open for this month~!! I totally want to get creative! Learn more, practice more! Totally bubbling with excitement!

I have to remember to tone down though, since my NUS exams are coming up soon... BUT it's so difficult to contain!! LOL. It's almost like 'SCREW NUS. Just concentrate on what you enjoy more.' So hard to maintain a balance between 3 almost completely different fields of study! NUS: Urban Planning & Sociology, JDMIS: Jewellery Design and Management & Jewellery Design and Fabrication (Since I'm doing the 2 diplomas in JDMIS at the same time, it feels like one and the same! EQUALS TOTALLY ENJOYING MYSELF)

MUST REMIND SELF: NEED TO BE SERIOUS FOR NUS EXAMS. MUST MAKE DEAN'S LIST. GET STRAIGHT A'S!! MAINTAIN HONOURS!!

Heaviest Ever

So I went to the gynae the other day... And to my horror, I was forced to step on the scale for the first time in a year. To my even horror, I found out that I am at my heaviest EVER!! (Which was strange to me and Jansen since I'm definitely skinnier than last year) Jansen says the scale must be screwy. I hope it is too.

THEN yesterday I stumbled upon my very very old pictures from when I first graduated from JC. And lo and behold, I say for the first time how skinny I was... Iwas as skinny as a twig!! All lean muscles and zero percent body fat. In comparison, I feel like a fat stuffed sausage bursting at the seams today.

My weight gain has been attributed medically to the condition I have that is known as polycystic ovaries. In summary, it means that I'm too damn fertile for my own good. My eggs ripen at a faster rate than most and for some unbeknownst reason decide not to leave my ovaries, as such, they break down in my ovaries instead of my uterus to form these 'cysts'. On top of that, because they are breaking down in the wrong place, the eggs are producing the wrong hormones... Testosterone instead of oestrogen.

Implications:

1. Increase in body hair (fortunately not the case for me)
2. Increase in weight (SIGH)
3. Increase in muscle mass (SIGH)
4. Increase in ability to gain muscle mass (SIGH)
5. Decrease in curves (SIGH)

I definitely feel the effects... And in some ways I do enjoy the fact that I put on muscle really easily because it makes me look really toned. On the down side, I got to be REALLY careful working out so I don't gain THAT much muscle mass. Jansen thinks that if the scale wasn't wrong, the weight probably has to do with my increase in muscle (Is it possible to increase weight by THAT much??) and increase in bone density which he apparently says is attributed to me having more testosterone than usual. Great... Bad enough that I already have heavy, dense bones to begin with... Now I'm getting bones of lead.

On another note, THANK GOD I HAVE DECENT BOOBS... So even though they've shrunk a bit, they're still above average for the Asian girl.

I can't wait for the day when I'm finally completely cured and will go back to my regular weight again... That's another year and a half more of medication to go though...